What You Don't Know...
I was never REALLY good at anything growing up. I played violin, but I wasn't great. I played soccer, was actually pretty bad at it. I played softball, I loved the game, but again was not very good.
There was never that one thing that I was just naturally good at, nothing that I really excelled in and enjoyed (unless you count reading tons of books). Until now.
Now I have this beautiful baby, and while yes at times I am past the point of being exhausted, I haven't been overwhelmed. There hasn't been a point that I thought I couldn't do it anymore. Maybe It's because Skye is only seven weeks old, but maybe, just maybe, I am good at this. I enjoy every little thing about this.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not necessarily a bad wife, but does keeping the house clean, making dinner, and doing endless loads of laundry come naturally to me? No. But I love to do it, because it makes my husband happy. We've gone through so much together, Getting dogs, buying a house, losing family members, and having our beautiful baby girl. Marrying him has been one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I have never once regret it.
I can tell this difference between Skye's "Hungry Cry", and her "I Don't Want To Go To Sleep Cry". I know that she sleeps better and longer if you rock her to sleep, and then put her in her Rock N Play with no music playing, but it already rocking (don't you dare start it after she's already in it). I know that she hates you supporting her head, and she would rather work on her head control while sitting up, versus tummy time. Does this make me the best mom in the world? No. Not even close, because there have been times where I wonder "Who let us be parents?".
Becoming a mother has literally been the greatest experience of my life. Labor was definitely rough, (But that's a whole different post on it's own) but so very much worth it. Finally being able to see the beautiful baby I had prayed for was an indescribable feeling. All 8lbs. 12oz. of her was absolutely perfect.
Becoming a wife and becoming a mother, is what I feel I was supposed to do. It's finally something that, not only do I enjoy them, I am good at both. Not once have I regretted marrying my wonderful husband, and I've never regretted becoming a mother. I love our beautiful baby girl, and I'm so grateful that my husband gave me the chance to be her mom.
What you don't know, is that you never really know what is going to make you happy, until it does. You can go through every single day of your life trying to find that one thing you thought would give you the utmost joy, and it could be the last thing you ever thought possible. Growing up I didn't want kids. I have Seven little brothers, I thought that there was no way I could ever want to be around more kids. But when I met Andrew, and we started dating, I saw this whole future I wanted to have with him. Now we have Skye, and there isn't a single thing in the universe that could replace her, and the joy that she brings me. I love my New Little Life.
There was never that one thing that I was just naturally good at, nothing that I really excelled in and enjoyed (unless you count reading tons of books). Until now.
Now I have this beautiful baby, and while yes at times I am past the point of being exhausted, I haven't been overwhelmed. There hasn't been a point that I thought I couldn't do it anymore. Maybe It's because Skye is only seven weeks old, but maybe, just maybe, I am good at this. I enjoy every little thing about this.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not necessarily a bad wife, but does keeping the house clean, making dinner, and doing endless loads of laundry come naturally to me? No. But I love to do it, because it makes my husband happy. We've gone through so much together, Getting dogs, buying a house, losing family members, and having our beautiful baby girl. Marrying him has been one of the best decisions I have ever made, and I have never once regret it.
I can tell this difference between Skye's "Hungry Cry", and her "I Don't Want To Go To Sleep Cry". I know that she sleeps better and longer if you rock her to sleep, and then put her in her Rock N Play with no music playing, but it already rocking (don't you dare start it after she's already in it). I know that she hates you supporting her head, and she would rather work on her head control while sitting up, versus tummy time. Does this make me the best mom in the world? No. Not even close, because there have been times where I wonder "Who let us be parents?".
Becoming a mother has literally been the greatest experience of my life. Labor was definitely rough, (But that's a whole different post on it's own) but so very much worth it. Finally being able to see the beautiful baby I had prayed for was an indescribable feeling. All 8lbs. 12oz. of her was absolutely perfect.
Becoming a wife and becoming a mother, is what I feel I was supposed to do. It's finally something that, not only do I enjoy them, I am good at both. Not once have I regretted marrying my wonderful husband, and I've never regretted becoming a mother. I love our beautiful baby girl, and I'm so grateful that my husband gave me the chance to be her mom.
What you don't know, is that you never really know what is going to make you happy, until it does. You can go through every single day of your life trying to find that one thing you thought would give you the utmost joy, and it could be the last thing you ever thought possible. Growing up I didn't want kids. I have Seven little brothers, I thought that there was no way I could ever want to be around more kids. But when I met Andrew, and we started dating, I saw this whole future I wanted to have with him. Now we have Skye, and there isn't a single thing in the universe that could replace her, and the joy that she brings me. I love my New Little Life.
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